Sleeping....or not

So most of you know that I have a hard time sleeping. It ranges from either not being able to fall asleep to falling in and out of sleep to having horrifying nightmares that wake me or just having so many dreams I don't feel like I have slept. So a new quirk to my "sleeping" pattern has happened and so since I am once again not sleeping (can't fall asleep right now, been trying for a couple hours) I thought I'd share with you.

With my in and out of dreams nights they are so vivid and real that sometimes the dreams even take place in my bedroom so when I wake up it takes me a minute to adjust and really wake up (because I am in fact in the room that the dream was happening in) and no longer see the crazy thing I was dreaming. Examples - for me to have to stare at my sealing until the crazy web thing above my head disappears (because it was never there) or for me to stare at my bedroom door to make sure it really is still closed and there is no man standing in the doorway, those are all acceptable (not acceptable as an enjoyment, but acceptable because I don't leave my bed...or I didn't used to leave my bed) and I could sometimes get back to sleep sooner.

Yes that is the new quirk...I have in fact gotten out of bed to check or fix whatever it was that was "wrong" in my dream, only to REALLY wake up at the end of my bed "looking" for the "problem" and realize that the said problem wasn't REAL. Hopefully it won't happen again and REALLY hopefully I won't ever leave my room if it does. YIKES! Maybe I should have my roommate start putting obstacles in my path to leave the house so I can't get out. :)

It is fascinating! I know. Its hard to believe that sleeping could cause me so much grief, or trying to sleep would. Sleep is supposed to be great...at least that's what I have been told. Maybe I obsess over it too much and that is why I have such a hard time with it??? Hmmm I don't know.

Anyone else have similar problems? I hope you don't. I really think that sleeping is an amazing thing...although if you aren't sleeping maybe you should let me know so when I have another night like this I can call you and maybe we could go get coffee...oh except I don't drink coffee, and that probably wouldn't help me to sleep anyway. HA!!!

*Don't forget I am writing this at 12:30am ish so sorry if it doesn't make sense...

Speakerphone

Oh how useful the speaker phone is, especially if you are busy doing something and still want to chat with a friend or family. Well tonight I had an experience that was enlightening as well as useful. So I don't know how many of you have used the said speakerphone to talk to lets say your whole family who is together and you can't be there. My sister Tammy had my family over at her place to celebrate my other sister Pam's birthday. (everyone except me...darn living so far away) So I called Tammy's place to see how it was going and they put me on speakerphone so they could have me sing happy birthday and they could all here my voice (they love me). That was all sorts of great until....more then one of them were talking at a time...then I couldn't understand ANYTHING that was being said. This is NOT the first time that has happened to me...and it is frustrating. So MY conclusion is speakerphone is great...except if you are trying to hear more then one person talk, especially if they aren't patient enough to let the other person stop talking. I'm not sure if it is the distance of the voices that jumbles the words or what it is. I think anyone who is interested should check this out and let me know if they get different results. If its the same result well then I am pretty much a genius...even if someone else figured it out before, because they didn't tell ME.

My Kiddo's and picnic's

So most of you know I work for and with people who have disabilities. I love them...I really do. I think they are amazing. I think they are so cute, and precious. So yesterday was our yearly picnic with our families who are taking care of our kiddo's (some biological families, and some foster families). We had this huge bounce house and a bounce slide. (HUGE success) We had a puppet show and so much food. YUMM!! They had sooo much fun and watching them have so much fun was so great. Plus we had amazing prizes that we gave out. (thanks to all the donations we received) I am so lucky to work in a field where I can see such amazing things.

So it's true I do sometimes follow the masses. I really wasn't too excited about this book. I had read the other three AND the Host. I think that is why I wasn't as excited. I felt like I had had enough with the super natural love triangles. But then a good friend started talking about it (thanks Mel) and before I knew it I was excited about it. How pathetic am I??? Well at least I am NOT alone. And I did start reading the series before the movie was really being talked about. So I didn't START by following the crowd...I was one of the leaders...at least I tell myself that to feel better. :)

So what did I think??? I actually liked it. I liked how she seemed less helpless and how she doesn't question what her feelings for Jacob are. (that would have REALLY bugged me). I don't want to give too much away, so I will leave it at that. I think it took me a total of like 11 or 12 hours. I started Monday night and then had to go to bed. But then finished it the next day. Good think I was feeling horrible, when I am feeling horrible i like to read...lets be honest I almost always like to read. :)

IF anyone has a desire to read this series, but not pay for all the books I do have them so you are welcome to borrow them.

Memories

I copied this from Mindy's blog. And you all should respond. :)

1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you know me a little or a lot, anything you remember as long as it's nice;)!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.Come and play!

One Hundred Things about ME

OK so a few of my friends have done this so I followed the crowd and did it. I am trying to post more often, but after this you all may not want to read anything new for a while. YES!!! :) It was hard to not repeat myself...maybe I did, you can check.

1. I grew up in Sparks Nevada
2. I was born in the front seat of the car in the parking lot of the hospital...I'm not very patient. :)
3. When I was 5 I had a puppy named cookie...so stinking cute!
4. My parents were separated by the time I was 6 months old, divorced at 10 months old
5. I am the youngest of three
6. My mom had all girls
7. I have been to Spain and France.
8. I work with people who amaze me every day.
9. My youngest kid at my work is 10, the oldest is 80. (these are the ones I make sure are taken care of)
10. I have lived in 3 different states.
11. I have visited 12 states (not including ones I have stopped in at airports)
12. I hardly ever wear make-up.
13. I have had over 20 roommates in my life (including the mission)
14. I have lived in Sandy for 6 years.
15. I once swore I would never move to Utah.
16. I was taught by missionaries.
17. I love musicals
18. I love old movies
19. I have one beautiful Niece.
20. Since I have lived in Utah I have had 8 different jobs...or more....
21. I hate conflict
22. I don't watch scary movies
23. I sometimes have very scary dreams.
24. I have stopped breathing in my sleep a few times.
25. I have an amazing family.
26. I love to read.
27. I love listening to music.
28. I am the type of person that needs to feel needed. I tend to feel sad if no one needs me.
29. I try to be optimistic.
30. I love being a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints
31. I served a mission in New Jersey
32. I am thinking about getting another second job.
33. I cry at anything sentimental, or if someone I care about is hurting...even if it isn't for or about me.
34. I love to cook and bake.
35. I love when my house is clean.
36. My biggest fear is dying with no one knowing or caring.
37. I have lived in my condo for almost 3 years.
38. I have had AMAZING roommates.
39. I have always wanted to get married in the fall.
40. I often allow others actions, or words affect me more then they should.
41. I have had my heart really broken 2 times.
42. I sometimes wonder if someone will really love me for me, and if I will love him back.
43. I have some of the most amazing friends ever.
44. My father died of a heart attack about 4 years ago.
45. I am not the best at the blog thing.
46. I used to be afraid of all men...now I am only afraid of a few. :)
47. I am a loyal person
48. I know God loves me
49. I know some day everything will be better
50. I love going to visit my family.
51. I wonder if I will ever live in Nevada again.
52. Sometimes I want to move FAR away where I don't know anyone, just to see if I can do it.
53. I want to go to Ireland some day.
54. I want to visit every state in the nation.
55. I now as an adult realize all my mom did for us girls. She is like a super hero.
56. I look up to my oldest sister more then I think she realizes.
57. I love Ace of Cakes
58. I love John and Kate plus 8.
59. Other then those shows I don't really watch T.V.
60. I love church. I love the feeling and strength it gives me.
61. At one time my family lived in a two bedroom trailer and my mom rented one of the rooms to someone.
62. My family has come a long way since I was a kid.
63. I live with a roommate and a bird.
64. I watched my niece every day when she was a baby
65. I didn't go to college.
66. I grew up in apartments.
67. I didn't get my licence until I was 18.
68. I got my first car when I was 19.
69. I moved out of my moms place when I was 20.
70.I love chocolate chip cookies.
71. I once got caught shop lifting when I was 8 (by a cop) SCARY. I didn't ever do it again.
72. I got baptized when I was almost 10. (so I guess I was 9)
73. I only have one living grandparent. And I don't ever really talk to him.
74. I have never been to Disney Land
75. My dad lived in California for most of my life.
76. My dad moved back to Nevada when I was 18 or 19.
77. Most of my family lives in Nevada. (including extended family)
78. I moved to Utah to live with my sister...she moved back to Sparks after I got here.
79. I have pretty bad allergies.
80. I love dogs...especially little ones.
81. I have been to Disney World
82. When I was little i was in the hospital or seen by a doctor frequently
83. I haven't ever broken a bone
84. I go home for Christmas every year.
85. I am so excited that I am almost done with this list.
86. I took cake decorating classes.
87. I love new recipes.
88. Most people do things that amaze me.
89. I live a pretty simple life...and I like it that way.
90. I don't like drama in my life...but I know sometimes I am the cause of the drama.
91. Some days I think I look REALLY good.
92. I get frustrated with injustice.
93. Sometimes my self esteem is really low.
94. I am so grateful for the people who are in and have been in my life. Love them.
95. I love small gestures. It doesn't take a lot to impress me.
96. I think for the most part most people are trying to be good, or do the right thing.
97. I feel blessed for all I have seen and done in my life.
98. I have been to Mexico...but it was a border city, and not so fun.
99. I really do love my life.
100. I actually finished this list. THAT IS AMAZING.

Central Air

So growing up I NEVER had A/C central air or anything...maybe we had some big fans. And even part of my childhood was living in an upstairs apartment. I LIVED without a good cooling system. Now as an adult I can't. Like I REALLY can't. I tried for two days and was a HORRIBLE person to be around.

You ask WHY? Why did you subject yourself to such cruelty?? Well let me tell you it wasn't my idea. I KNOW I am spoiled and can't live without it. So my air wasn't working....and it was HOT. So I called and thought I could get it fixed for pretty cheap...I did get it fixed....it wasn't cheap. I do have a new Central Air devise now. Its kind of pretty...as pretty as one can be. And it looks new. That's kind of fun. But now I am even MORE poor. Darn being an adult!!!
Again sometimes wish I could just be a kid again and have no worries.

So if any of you want to feel the "coolness" of my place come on over. :)